I aspired to find someone beloved.....

At my highschool days I was ardent fan of gazals. It might be because of one of my friends Ashish. He was a great listener of gazals and shayari and because of that closeness to him, I too started listening to Jagjit Singh and Ghulam Ali. I do remember some of them even today. Yesterday while searching for some old songs I found some gazals and songs which I used to listen at that time. One of my favourite songs was from the movie "Nikah". The wordings go like this -"Dil ki ye aarzoo thi koi dilruba mile (I aspired to find someone beloved)". Yesterday I listened to this song again and feelings of my highschool days have been rambling into my mind since then. I do remember a girl in my class. She was very beautiful and all the
boys in the class used to flirt with her and I was not an exception. I never proposed her because of some fear. Six years have passed away. I am still waiting for someone. The lyrics of this song suits to my condition - "Dil ki ye aarzoo thi koi dilruba mile ". :(

Bashir Badra ki Gazalein !

I was in Kanpur at my friend's house for a day. His mother is a hindi professor so there were lots of hindi books. One book got my special attention. It was "Bashir Badra ki Gazalein". I just went through it and read some shayaries and gazalein. One of them was really very nice.
"Ujaale apni yaadon ke hamare saath rahane do ,
Na jaane kis gali main zindagi ki shaam ho jaaye"
"Dushmani jam kar karo bas etni gunjaayish rahne do,
Jab kabhi dost ban jaayen to sharminda na ho paayen"
I coudn't read all the book due to shortage of time but I liked it. I am searching for it and hope to get it soon.

I'm back

So I’m back again at kgp after eight days. These days were really great. I enjoyed a lot. As I mentioned earlier I went to Kanpur first, where I visited IITK & Rave. I stayed at my friend’s house. I was welcomed by his family. The environment of his house was wonderful. The best things were the discussions and the involvement of everyone. I’d like to go there again in future. IITK is very well constructed but is very compact. Everything is around a small circle. I couldn’t see the labs. Actually one of my friends in IITK promised me to help me while I was there but unfortunately he went away to his home for vacations. So another of my friend (Atal) and me just saw it from the outside. One thing what I found really appreciable was the security of IITK. What the hell are the security people doing here? They should learn something from them.
We then moved to Rave, a famous movie theater where we saw the movie “Bride and Prejudice”. I needn’t mention the movie but obviously the theater was up to its fame. There were lots of beautiful gals. Ah! What could I do but only watch themL. Hey!!! God do something for me also. I had a train at night but it also got late by three hours.
Next few days were full of peace. I slept, ate and saw T.V. I met some of my friends who are doing their engineering from Agra. Finally the day arrived on which I had a train to Kgp. These eight days were in contrast to my monotonous Kgp life. Though I had a very short time to enjoy but something is always better than nothing.

Going Home.............

Finally I am going home after nearly three months. These days were really hard. I desperately needed a change from my monotonous life here. This time my schedule is very hectic. Vacations are from 16th to 24th so I am going tomorrow to Kanpur with Rituraj (kgp junta calls him “Atal”). Atal is from Kanpur. I’ll stay in his house for one day. I plan to visit IITK to see how they are different from us. I’ll probably go to Rave, a famed theater. I don’t remember the last time I saw a movie in a theater. On 17th night I’ll take a train from Kanpur to Agra and hopefully I’ll reach my home on 18th morning. I am waiting for home made food … yummy. I wish I had wings so that I could have reached there within a few minutes. I’ll leave for Kota on 20th to meet my brother. It’s a one night journey. I’ll be there for a day then will return back home on 22nd. Alas! I’ll end up spending only five days at home. I am scheduled to return on 24th. I am short on time but I think the next few days is going to be great fun.

Veer Zaara

I am an ardent fan of hindi music. These days I am listening to the songs of Veer Zaara. Songs of Veer Zaara are heart rendering. The music is so melodious that I can't help listening to it time and again. Songs "Do pal", "Tere Liye" and "Main Yahan Hoon" are very rhythmic. I was amazed, when I heard that the music of Veer Zaara was composed thirty years before by Late Madan Mohan. Lata's voice is also marvelous. She seems to be thirty year younger with this music. Kash mere paas bhi koi Zaara hoti (I wish even i had a Zaara).....
" Do pal ka khwabon ka karwan, aur phir chal diye tum kahan hum kahan"

My Name

My name is Roopak. Why did my parents choose this name for me, even I don’t know. I feel, it might be because it sounded very well and it was not like a traditional name at those days. As a child when I used to ask my parents the meaning of my name all that they would say was that “it’s a type of ALANKAR”. I don’t know the exact word in English for “ALANKAR” so I will try to elaborate it according to Hindi literature. Someone who decorates or makes things more attractive by adding something is called “ALANKAR”. Am I attractive enough?
What would have happened if my name was not Roopak? Would it effect anyhow? My family astrologer had predicted that my name should start with ‘Gya’ so my grandfather suggested names like ‘Gyanprakash’, ‘Gyanchand’ e.t.c. What if my name would have been ‘Gyanprakash’ or ‘Gyanchand’? Has my life been shaping up according to my name?
I don’t believe in the modernity of the name thus I can say that it hardly matters whether your name is ‘Gyanprakash’ or ‘Roopak’. I am very confused. I am very confused.